Sameer's Writing Playground

My scratchpad of life thoughts

Month: July 2016


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I love trees
They do not judge

They stand still
They forgive
They do not try to fix

They sway
Branches waving
Leaves laughing
They do not lecture

They do not blame

I love watching trees
They stand still

They see
Their gaze pierces
This tired veil

Leaves shine and laugh
They shimmer in the sun
They know something

Branches extend
They make room
For a bird to land
With ease
They teach me

If I didn’t know better
I would spend my
Whole life watching them

(photo credit – Michał Parzuchowski)

My Left Hand Cannot Write


My left hand cannot write
But sometimes he tries

He’s been looking at righty
His entire life
Watching ink flow
Watching words fly

It looks so easy
He gives it a try
It feels all clumsy
He stops in shame

They call him a “slow learner”
He thinks just as fast
But with pen in hand
His speed is just not the same

He tried today
Started this poem
But even the spaghetti at dinner
Was easier to decipher

Lefty is selfish
He brings everything to a crawl
We must all wait

* While * he * takes * a * whole * minute *
* To * write * this * one * line *

My brain feels incompetent
Incapable of waiting
Uneasy with slow time

Righty is yelling
C’mon get with the program

Lefty observes
Feels the change in pressure
Of fingers on pen
Ink on paper

He has his own pace

My left hand cannot write
But sometimes he tries
He will get better
If I give him the chance

But where is the time
Another poem waits
Another witty line

He’ll have his day
He’ll be fine

My left hand cannot write
But sometimes he tries

(originally posted on Medium here)

You Complete Me

A therefore B therefore C
Marries I just want to be free

Hug me love me please
Is with Just let me be

Chaos and Anarchy
Sleep in a bed quite tidy

Dear Aunt Sanity
Seeks out raging Uncle Crazy

Since when did the birds
Start yearning for the bees

Why do weird analogies
Make so much sense to me

We spend our lives lamenting
Everyday what we see

In whom we chose to live with
With no known remedy

Why not simply give in
And admit honestly

Like my friend Jerry
In that Maguire movie

“I love you…
You complete me”

Two Hand Dance

I walk my bike up
This steep hill
Look across the street
And stop still

His tiny left hand
Wraps daddy’s shoulder
His tiny body
Leans over

His little right hand
Just barely touches
The metal handle of a
Rumbling lawn mower

Dad’s left hand grips
This heavy machine
His right gently holds
His two year old son

Backs tipped over
They both mow
The lawn together

Papa, Look

MishaNatureWalkLook papa
I am a fairy princess
With magical wings

“Misha, that’s wonderful”

Look papa
I’m taking my blanket for a walk

“Misha, that’s wonderful”

Look papa

Papa what do you really think?
What do you really feel?
Do you really see me?

See me jump
See me fall
See me slide down
Be a snake on a wall

C’mon papa
Look up
Show me your face

Put away your phone


Disengaged Rat

He sat for long
With folded knees

Contemplating loops
No birds
No bees

White walls
Grey desk
Humming PCs

Polite as a mouse
Bosses to please

Meetings about meetings
Vision strategies

Conformance training
HR policies

Morale events
Designed to appease

Corporate values
What the fuck
Are these?

He stood up today
To ask the trees

Can someone please
Move my cheese!


(Source of inspiration for this one – chats with my friend Sarah and posts from her Happy Rat blog, such as this and this :))

Don’t shut the voice

Don’t shut the voice
That cries to be heard
Yet when it speaks
It’s not me
The language of the tongue
Is not the voice of the soul
But I think you hear me
Dear friend
Thank you
Don’t ask for a plan
Don’t ask if it will work
Don’t question me
For the voice you hear
Is not the one that speaks
The answers I give
Are simply lips moving to your tune
But come find me in a moment
When our eyes meet
And together
We will see what is possible
Ask me

Hello friend

Ok, here goes. I’ve been thinking about blogging for a number of years now, longer than I’m willing to admit. I’ve finally created some world wide space for myself and here’s my first post.

I was reflecting today on what’s been holding me back, why haven’t I started this earlier. I think there are many reasons, most of which fall into some weird psychological categories of self-judgment, fear of others judging me, feeling like I don’t have a clear point of view or topic that I want to write about, feeling that I’m being pretentious and full of myself for writing about myself, thinking too much about what to write about, the list goes on. All of this is probably true to some extent with genuine reasons to censor myself in the interest of making this experience more bearable for the reader. And yet, it’s clear that I want to experiment more with my writing, and need a playground to play in. Not a step-by-step tour of the structured play area, but more like the sandbox that my four year old plays in. Where he sits and watches the sand pour down from one bucket into another, and then back to the other, with seemingly random purpose, but a clear unspoken intention. Where he might all of a sudden decide to make sand ice-creams and open an ice-cream shop, where he might argue about who gets to use the dump truck, where in one moment he might guide the truck through neatly created paths, and in another decide to taste those sand ice-creams. Mud in the face.

To cut through the noise in my head and state it simply – I’ve created this space for me to write, to write about nothing and everything and all the paradoxes in between, to write whatever I want to write, in whatever way I want to, without worrying about whether I’m using the right grammatical structure or sentence structure or whether my sentences are too long. Or too short. Or on topic or off topic. Or who likes what. Or how it makes me look. Or whatever. My hope is to regularly post stream of consciousness ramblings like this one, as well as poems, life stories, insights and nuggets from conversations, and whatever else feels post-worthy.

My mind often automatically orients itself toward trying to perceive how something I say or do will be perceived or judged. And yet, it’s clear from so many experiences again and again that magical moments have come along when I was least expecting them, when I was least prepared. When I certainly wasn’t trying to position or posture myself in a certain strategic way. So my honest attempt here is to just write whatever comes to mind in a sort of stream of consciousness manner. I find that so many of us (myself certainly included) spend so much time appealing to external expectations, to appearances, to labels and categories, to all the ‘shoulds’ in our heads. We cave in to the internal lizard voice that says – “you’re a technical PM, what are you doing writing poetry”, “you’re just a poser, a fraud”, “what will so-and-so think”, and on and on. It’s so ingrained. So both logically and idealistically speaking, it makes sense to carve out some place where I give myself permission to express myself in whatever way I feel like. Permission to write whatever is on my mind in this moment. Knowing that it might change or I might contradict myself or regret it in the next moment. Permission to write freely without needing labels or explanations.

And yet here I am, starting with all these explanations. Enjoy.